Prayer #3

Thank you Lord for giving me the strength to continue pressing forward.

Please forgive me as I fail to live up to your commandments. I am grateful for your Son, Y’Shua, Jesus the Christ.

Heavenly Father, please forgive those who persecute me and work Satan to torment my life – they do not know you Lord and therefore do not know what they are doing.

In spite of everything I have done Lord I know you will continue to love me and show me the way to Truth and Light.

I pray over all these things in the name of Jesus.

In the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.



Prayer #2

Dear Heavenly Father,

Please give me the knowledge and understanding necessary to continue living.

I am struggling in understanding my purpose and with that the knowledge that has been bestowed upon me.

I don’t know why I know the things that I do, but I do and I just want to understand why I was brought here, to this point, in my life.

Things appear to be confusing to me and I don’t understand why it has to be this way. Please Lord grant me the knowledge and wisdom necessary to live a fulfilled life.

In the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit.



Zanelle Zephurin

Dear Heavenly Father,

Please help Zanelle Zephurin to quit smoking marijuana. If indeed she is your child, your daughter, then you will pay heed to my prayer.

In the scriptures you warn us of things that are of the world and that are not beneficial nor profitable to our spirit or flesh. Please give her the strength to refrain from using and please instill in her new healthy habits.

In the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.



Prayer for the Day

My Prayer for Today

Lord, I ask You to help me remain focused on my goals, even when the devil tries to use people to steal my focus and distract me. Knowing that the devil tries to use people, I ask You to help me equip myself spiritually and mentally so I will be able to keep my eyes on the goal You have given for my life. I choose to forgive those whom the devil uses. I will pray for them to change and to repent for their actions; I will keep my heart free of offense; and I will continue to march full-steam ahead to achieve what God has told me to do! Holy Spirit, please help me stay on track and keep my heart free from all strife!

I pray this in Jesus’ name!



Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday

Thursday, May 4th

Pick-up rental head to the OC

Hang with Jake and Jayden – Chess, or walk up to Grand Park

If time allows go to the gym and lift, if not chill at Barnes and Noble

Hit up Brett

Friday, May 5th

Coffee and Chess

Swim and chill @Diamond

Dinner with Jake, Jayden, Monique and Wayne


Saturday, May 6th

Run around Aliso (3 miles)

Leave by 7a.m.

Graduation 10a.m.

Party 12p.m.

Buy Wine and Flowers for Chula Ma

Dinner with her and Mom

Sunday, May 7th

Return rental





Debating in my Mind

There’s a lot of things I have been debating lately, dating, career options and even where to live. Last night I went to the Word, a weekly poetry open mic night at my university. There was this really cute blonde who flirted with me and although I didn’t know her name, I clearly remember her face as this is the second time she has approached me. This usually doesn’t happen. What would happen in the past is I would attempt to befriend or court some girl I was interested in and she would either give me a shot, or ignore me completely. Now that I have invested in myself and debating becoming a #MGTOW monk women are paying more attention to me. I guess that’s how it works. You ignore them and they notice you – you give them too much attention and they think you’re a creeper. This happens to me every time too: Just when I start to get my life together, some girl comes around and starts to mess with me as if she is literally trying to fuck up my world. When it comes to sex, eh! I think sex is great and all, but I think it’s highly overrated in our culture. I think a lot of young men and boys are programmed to crave for women and their validation and it’s hard for them to pull back all the marketing, advertising and lies that have been spoon fed to them their whole lives. Once you are able to look past the make-up, fashion and cosmetic surgeries, women are just not that beautiful. Yes, of course, there are those women who possess a natural beauty – nice curves, beautiful eyes, a great figure, but so many of them try so hard to put on an appearance, and because I have been trained to detect such forgeries I don’t easily fall into the trap as my younger self would. It’s just hard. To go from one side of the spectrum to then go monk is not an easy challenge. Even last night I found myself looking at robotic women and then later, tweaking butts. I mean what the hell! Seriously?! Twerking butts? What has our generation come to?

I guess this is where humanity meets it last demise, and as I continue to grow in strength, finding ways to become more financially stable and successful,  more women will pursue me as a viable means of sex and resources.

I just gotta keep my head down and my words few, and let the actions do the rest of the work.

Nothing in this life matters more than the work we do and produce for our legacy, other than that there is nothing else, just talk.