Cutting because the woman I love is invisible.
I watch as these bitch ass niggas dance and play the clown,
I watch as these pansy ass boys get the girls and they are superficial as fuck,
I watch and see these jocks get their cocks sucked.
And I sit here playing the good boy, getting drunk and high and trying to forget
that I am the lost boy,
nothing, everything but nothing.
I sit around and watch everyone get what they want.
I sit here and watch and waiting, practicing patience, acting like the good old soldier.
I can’t wait to die. When will this life end?
Please G-d take my life, I am ready to die.
I don’t want anything else.
Send me to the depths, send me to the end, I don’t care.
Strip my flesh, strip my soul, rip my hair.
Rip my soul, rip my emotion, I am running out of motion.
Running out of purpose, running of out meaning.
Illuminated, enlightened, but suffering, and losing
But in the persecuting I am winning
doing my best not to do wrong and not to give in to sinning.
End my life G-d.
End my life, please.
I’m living a lie.
Smiling, smiling, smiling and smiling.
Dead man smiling.
It’s pathetic that he calls, but it’s romantic that I think.
I want you Baby.
You don’t know how much I want you.
It’s sick how much I want you.
Lock me up, put me in a straight-jacket, put me in a home, but no matter what they do
I will never stop loving you Baby.