A Way of Life

We are born into this world with not a choice of who are parents are, with not a choice of what color we are.

We do not get to choose our class, we do not get to choose our gender.

We are spirits born into the flesh. We are born as a consequence of past generations.

Their sin, their blood and their spirits live in us.

Some of us are like animals, while some of us are like gods, or angels or demons.

We are born a type of way, and this way is not of our choosing.

We live and wait for something, something greater, but we are not entirely sure.

Some of us do not believe in anything but the wind, while others believe in great gods of the past, and few believe in a Chosen one.

The One who will bring balance to the world, bring balance to the universe, to the cosmological forces at war.

We are hurting, day-by-day, we are dying. We are waiting for something.

We deceive ourselves and distract ourselves with material possessions, money, wealth, fame, things of this world, things that will pass.

We bring about death to the innocent, injustice to the weak, we rape our sons, we rape our daughters, cheat on our husbands and wives, and we lie, we continue to lie and pretend like nothing is wrong. We live a lie. We live in a fantasy world.

There is no love, except from the One above. He is the One who truly loves.

There is no love in this world just a fabrication of it. It is a forgery. It is delusion of self.

But there is One who gave His life for me, for you, for them.

He is One that many have heard of, but few have seen.

He is invisible.

He is gone.

He is absent.

Those who do not accept Him are doomed. Those who do not accept Him will perish. Those who do not proclaim Him will see something like they have never seen before.


They will feel it. They will smell it. They will hear it. They choose Death.

But I choose Life.



Thank You.

Thank you Lord for my life. Thank you for all that you have give me. Thank you for all that you have provided me up until this day. Thank you for taking me around the world. Thank you for taking me to the place where your Son walked. Thank you for the beautiful dreams. Thank you for all my opportunities. Thank you for love. Thank you for mercy. Thank you for grace. Thank you for dying on the cross for me.


Jesus, Hear my Prayer

Lord Jesus,

I want her to know that I love her deeply, that she means the world to me.

Please God I am begging you to save her. I am losing my strength to live.

I don’t know how much longer I can go through with this.

I am ready to lose my life for you Lord.

I know what I must do.

Please set her free.

In the name of Jesus.




1 Corinthians 5:1-5 Complete Jewish Bible (CJB)

It is actually being reported that there is sexual sin among you, and it is sexual sin of a kind that is condemned even by pagans — a man (woman) is living with his stepmother (stepfather)! And you stay proud? Shouldn’t you rather have felt some sadness that would have led you to remove from your company the man who has done this thing? For I myself, even though I am absent physically, am with you spiritually; and I have already judged the man who has done this as if I were present. In the name of the Lord Yeshua, when you are assembled, with me present spiritually and the power of our Lord Yeshua among us, hand over such a person to the Adversary for his old nature to be destroyed, so that his spirit may be saved in the Day of the Lord.


A Special Day

A Special Day (2012) is a remake or adaptation of the original film from 1977. The film follows two characters, Gina and Marco through Italy, and Gina awaits for a meeting with a local politician.

The film beautifully captures moving images of Italy from shots in Rome to others in local shops and cafes.

The film also captures an insight into the political economy Italy in a “post-feminist society.” Unfortunately, this commerce is often tied to sex trades and shady behind the scenes social contracts and agreements that will later lead to higher rankings in politics, entertainment and other industries.

Where the lines are blurred is how high up these “trades” are being orchestrated and facilitated by officials. Are these agreements constructed at the grass-roots level? Meaning, will a mother willingly offer her daughter to someone for sex in exchange for money, and/or a higher position in a particular industry?

Additionally, it seems as though emphasis is placed on beauty, and “the finer things in life.” – flashy cars, restaurants, expensive jewelry and clothing and so on.

“Nice things cost money,” is the quote that is often brought up in dialogue between the characters Marco and Gina.

Gina, is 19 years old, and she is an arts student who is looking to make it as an actress. Marco, is a driver/escort, who is trying to make ends meet.

“You are now working,” says Gina. “Yes, I am now working.”

These lines of dialogue demonstrate the significance of work and gender politics of the post-feminized world of Italy. Whereas a man works, and usually he is born into a neo-caste system where he will normally not see a higher rank in social standing, a woman can move up the ladder depending on who she knows and how she uses her assets.

“They only take pretty girls,” Gina says in a conversation at a restaurant with Marco. “They will take care of you as long as you are pretty. They don’t take ugly girls,” she goes on.

When Gina’s meeting with the politician is delayed, her and Marco take a journey through Italy together and naturally, come to different levels of friendship and quite arguably love. It is obvious, however, that Gina is the Alpha figure in this relationship and maintains not only control from Marco but a distance that allows her to manipulate him but also call onto him when she is in need of assistance.

Although it is not explicitly stated in the film, I believe Marco loves Gina. However, Gina will not give him the opportunity because of his social standing, and even if she did love him, she would not receive the social support from her family organization as she is under surveillance and discipline from her mother.

In the end, Marco drops off Gina to meet with the politician. The meeting is rather short, with brief dialogue, and eventually Gina finds herself in a sex deal with the politician. The scene briefly covers sexuality as she unzips his pants, and cuts to the next scene where she puts back on her high heels and stumbles to the bathroom. In the bathroom it is barely light, and in the mirror Gina looks at herself with a ghastly look of shame and disgust. Her worth is nothing more than sex. Gina is an object, and her body is her financial transaction.

Gina returns home revealing very little to her mother about the exchange or her day, and she takes a shower only to realize she is back she started, nowhere.

Marco in his anxious and hopeful state attempts to repair one of the heels Gina left in his car. He goes to her apartment and screams out to her. Gina sits in front of television set, stone faced, melancholy, depressed and unmoved. She ignores Marco. Marco is a fool.


Rat in a Maze

Wake up! Get out of your bed you sloth.

Time to get to work…

Time to slave away…

Time to prove yourself…

Will you make it? Will you prove them wrong?

Or are you just another pretender? A fake? A want-to-be? A wish-to-be?

They’re watching you. They’re listening. Every single step.

They hate you. They want to kill you. They laugh in secret at your misery.

You can’t run. They’re everywhere. They will find you.

Now, what will you do? Will you fight? Or will you run?

And you thought you were special? You’re trash! You’re weak. You hide behind your religion like the rest of the world. I smell…A fake!

You have no one to blame except yourself. You did this. You brought yourself here, and now you have to face the consequences.

You could have minded your own business. You could have gone your own way, but instead you decided to come back. Now I will haunt you. Now I will torture you, and show you the real meaning of pain. This has just begun. You can pray all you want, I’m in your mind. When you sleep I’m in your dreams. I am everywhere. This is my world.

You betrayed her but not only that, you betrayed yourself. Now she has you right where she wants you. You are a dog on leash, and there’s no where to run. You think she wants to be saved? Haha! You fool! She is happy where she is, she doesn’t need you.

Your unfaithfulness has brought you here to the slaughter, and now I will use you as I please.

You are a snake. Own up to it! You are my child. Your parents did not know that they were worshiping me at the time of your conception. You were chosen for Me!







What else? I see murder in your heart. You want to kill. You deceive yourself and say it is for your God, for your country, for your loved ones, but I know you. You want to take life because it was taken from you. You are not a follower of Him, you are a follower of Me!

Stop denying who you are! Proclaim it! I will make you free. You will be a God.

Come to me my Child, and I will show you the wonders of this world. Stop with this acting. Stop with this righteous act, it’s meaningless. You and I both know where you are going.

Worship me…

Worship me…

Worship me…

Claim your number…



I WILL leave the wilderness, and go after the one which I love.

I WILL bring death to those who violate the law and bring justice to the meek.

I WILL serve the LORD, Jesus Christ, the Son of God until the day I die.

I AM chosen for a great work.

I AM chosen for the redemption of the saints.

I AM chosen to strengthen the weak and bring up His disciples.

I DIE for the Truth.

I DIE for the Innocent.

I DIE for the Cross.




The WORLD takes up the 99, but I come for the 1.