My Happy Color

When you’re feeling down and you wish to feel up, just think about someone else and their circumstances. Think about their pain, and the possible obstacles they may face. The other may be facing a divorce; he might be fighting an addiction; she may be dealing with rejection, think about her. Think about him.

Think about the other.

Imagine what it would be like to kill someone. Whether you stabbed them, or shot them, think about what it feels like to deal with the pain of taking someone’s soul. Or what about the person who was raped? It’s not often we think about sex as intrusive, destructive and traumatizing; No, we often think about it in the romantic context with happy-ever afters and “I do’s.” Imagine what it feels like to not be able to trust someone again? To love and bring someone close. To love and hold intimately in your arms. Imagine.

To starve and wonder if you’re going to get a piece of bread to eat. To thirst and wonder if the well is full of water, or if the drought is one day longer, praying and hoping that reconciliation will come. Hope will come. Faith.

Sure, it’s easy to say things and not act upon them. We live in homes – we have shelter. We have jobs – we have security. We have friends – we are social. Let’s think, however, of the other side. Loneliness. Darkness. Cold. Empty. Secluded. Gone. Forever. Think about it.

I do not like talking about depression, but here I am writing about it. I believe depression is both a blessing and a curse; but only you can decide what it is for you. I choose to accept it as a blessing.

In the book of Ecclesiastes, in chapter one verse 18 it states that “For in much wisdom is much frustration, and those who increase in knowledge increase in sorrow.” (Ecclesiastes 1:18; the Bible).

The more you know the more you are susceptible to depression. It sucks. I know! But it’s a matter of life. The question is, what will you do with the knowledge that you have now attained?



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